This was originally going to be password protected, but I think I might need some advice.

As you may have read on my other name, I haven't had much of an appetite lately. I eat something small once a day and that's about it. I'm not completely starving myself, but I thought about it and I think I'm doing this on purpose. I'm purposely ignoring the cravings for food. I found that if you ignore it long enough, the cravings go away. Its not even cuz I am dissatisfied with how I look. I'm actually pretty content at my appearance. I just don't want to eat.

Another thing is that I know I need help, but I will only admit it to myself. I won't admit that to anyone else. Even though I know I need the help, I still refuse to go cuz I don't feel that they can do anything for me. I feel as though its a waste of time and money to pay someone to listen to your problems. I'm anti-medication so if they were to prescribe me for anything, I'd never get it filled or take it.

I have a tendency of over-analyzing everything too. Its a bad habit I've had since I was younger. Right now I'm over-analyzing the Stuart situation. I even know that its got nothing to do with him. Its everything to do with me and my problems and issues. He's done absolutely nothing wrong. I'm trying so hard not to push my limits and I'm almost afraid I've already done that. I keep asking myself why this had to happen. Why I became interested in someone when I was doing so well at not. I really want it to go somewhere, even with the knowledge that it'll end in a few short months due to the inevitable moves we are both making, but I know that it can't.

Yeah, I think that's it for now. I'm really tired so I'm not thinking as clearly as I normally do. Maybe if I think of anything else, I'll come back on here and write about it. If you do leave any advice/help comments, here's my thanx ahead of time.

Maybe you can find someone you can open up to and discuss such matters without paying them or feeling odd that you are talking to someone who is paid to..and paid to completely analyze every word that you say instead of just the overall picture.

I, personally, am all for going with feelings but I do worry a bit about how you may handle it when the moves occur. But I'll be around to offer any advice that I think might help even the slightest bit.
» etheracide on 2007-03-12 07:47:30

Sorry, you do not have permission to comment.

If you are a member, try logging in again or accessing this page here.