Quarter after six in the morning and I have managed to go the whole night without talking to Stuart. He has not texted me or IMed me at all and I have not made an attempt to text him either. Though, the thought has crossed my mind so many times that I lost count.

I'm a little upset and bothered by it, but its something I know I can't do; talk to him every single night. If I remember correctly, he's supposed to start working again either now or very soon, so maybe he actually decided to sleep. Who knows, but what I do know is that I managed it.

I wonder if he's testing my will. Testing to see if I can actually go a night without attempting to contact him. . . though I have cheated slightly by allowing myself to look at his myspace page ... hoping to maybe catch him online. But alas, he hasn't been on yet today.

I want him so badly, you have no idea. But I know that it wasn't meant to happen, otherwise it would have. This is driving me absolutely crazy. I've never felt this way about someone before. He joked the other night, saying that I was "in lust" with him. I wonder what caused him to say something like that. And so randomly too. I've been in love before, and this is nothing like that, however, I was told that the love I feel for each person is different. I doubt this is love though. Its not strong enough ... or maybe it is and I'm ignoring it.

Gah! I don't even want to think about that. Then it just seems obsessive.

*sigh* I really hope this situation works itself out. And soon. I hate not understanding why this is all happening.

=/ Boys.

It'll work itself out, forrealz. If he starts acting shady, though, it IS okay to talk to him about it.
» alexsedotcx on 2007-07-25 01:53:46

It... is kind of obsessive. But it probably happens to everybody at least once in their lifetime.

Obsession sucks. :/
» randomjunk on 2007-07-25 10:36:10

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